I Am Pregnant!

Yes, I am pregnant, for exactly 11 weeks today. Now I know how true it is that it's not a joke carrying a child. Everyday is a roller coaster of emotions; but I am happy. The Husband and I are ecstatic! :-)

They say that when the time comes, you know (or something like that!) I've been delayed for many times but 2 months ago, I did not joke about it to The Husband. I had this feeling that maybe now, this is it.

We're not really nagmamadali, whenever a friend is asking kung kelan namin balak, we always say, "kung kelan ibibigay ni Lord". And we know that having a baby is a very serious matter, what with all the gastos and all the adjustments you need to make. We know we'll have a child pero hindi namin ini-stress ang sarili namin on having one the soonest.

So as I said, two months ago, when I took that pregnancy test, I was saying to myself "Desi, okay lang kung negative" because I know I'll be disappointed if its not positive. I know that I said na hindi kami nagmamadali but it doesn't mean na hindi pa namin gusto. Siguro we have fears lang.. of the future.

So I took that test when Husband is asleep. So pee, pee, pee, drop, drop, drop, one minute, two minutes, three minutes..

And then..

POSITIVE!

I can't believe it at first. I have never felt so many emotions at once! Of course I am excited..but there are those other nervous things on my mind.

So ginising ko si Husband, and I asked him "Two lines ba 'to?" Medyo blurry yung isang line so nagda-doubt pa ko.

And then The Husband looked at me with that, I don't know.. "beatific" (???) smile, well, that's the first thing that came into my mind when I saw him smile that time, basta I know it's different from all his other smiles. I know that he's sobrang happy. He hugged me and told me "hon, magkaka-baby na tayo!"

And amidst all doubts, fears, uncertainties and all the questions in my mind, I know that we'll be okay. That I'm looking to a man who would do everything for me and our baby. And as the song says "All of my doubts suddenly goes away somehow".

As they say, you're never really *ready* to have a baby, so I guess there's no time like the present :-) Just praying and thinking happy healthy thoughts!